Get comfortable because this post isn't full of pretty pictures of my dog, or delicious food. I'm going to get real for a minute. I may sound selfish, or foolish, but I want to share these crazy feelings I'm having because I'm sure many pregnant women feel the same way.
November 1, 2013, the first day my stomach got in the way on the hamstring curl machine. HAHAHA. It seems silly, I know, but this was a big day for me. I'm 18 weeks so naturally I have a small bump now. My friends laugh at me and tell me I'm ridiculous; they say it’s adorable and I look great; to me it looks like I have a giant basketball in my stomach.
However, I am proud to say I am embracing this little bump more than I thought I would. Now, I'm not going to completely down play it. I definitely had a melt down about a week ago. I had just gotten out of the shower and was standing in front of the mirror and just started to cry. It sounds vein and selfish; but, I've spent my entire life working on keeping a toned, healthy figure. It's hard to see my body changing. I jumped in the bed quickly, trying to hide my tears from Josh. He usually gets aggravated when I complain about my body; he says I must see a completely different image in the mirror than what he sees, and that is probably true. But instead of getting annoyed, he just came over, kissed me, and very sweetly, told me to get use to it because it was going to get bigger; but, the end result is going to be something pretty amazing! It was the best thing he could have said. I didn't want him to coddle me and tell me that I still looked the same, because that's just not true. But he helped me realize that's OK.
I have feared this stage in my pregnancy since day one. I had this image in my head of myself going from a size 4 to a size 16, with a big, round, puffy face, waddling around like a penguin. So, when my mom asked if she could take me maternity shopping last weekend, I had very mixed feelings. I was looking forward to buying pants that gave me room to breathe, and shirts that's actually fit around my ever- growing bust; but, I was NOT looking forward to admitting that I don't comfortably fit into all of my normal clothes.
Quickly, I learned that maternity clothes are AWESOME and now I can't wait to get a little bigger so I can wear them! I also learned that having a baby belly doesn't mean you have to wear a size 16 pants- HAHAHA. I was very happy to learn that you buy the same size clothes; they are just made to fit the new shape of your body.
Hope you had a wonderful weekend! Here's to embracing the changes!!!!
I want to see that bump! And all your cuteness!!
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